Life

Back from Brussels. Pictures with Pei Lynn. My camera's faulty so I didn't bring it along. =( Hope it won't cost too much to fix it. I'm suspecting something is loose inside. When I shake the camera, it switches modes, e.g. from taking pics to review pics. So weird.

On another note, my Swatch watch battery gave out on me. Luckily I still have my Guess watch. Hopefully it'll last till after exams. >.<

Will update more about the trip soon! Loads of DRAMA. Haha... gonna go bathe now.

p.s. restricted blog permission to family members. now, daddy and mummy have access too! =)

Love you all and been missing you all LOTS! Hope the internet connection at home will be working again soon.

p.p.s. Daylight saving adjusted and now the time difference is 7 hours.

Going holiday tomorrow!! YAY!!!

Pei Lynn bully me for access and now she wants to hack into my blog to delete this. Hmmmmmmmm........

Oh, and I didn't bring camera, she said she not going to give me pictures with her inside. Haihhh.... See larrrr.....

Okay... shall stop here in case she kills me in Brussels. Oh noooo.. OHHH I'm safe, she said she will kill me after that cause she don't want to go alone.

Nvm this post if you don't know her. Oh and if you don't hear from me, you know who to ask. HAH!!! Okay.. shall stop NOW.

Often I plan holidays and it doesn't work out.

People seem to be busy and do not have time to go along with it. At other times, people are half way across the world, too far to join me.

So many times I have sat and planned and thought about all the things that could be done. I feel disappointed over and over again. Yet, I still keep planning and looking forward to them, I guess I'm just silly that way.

Somehow it just feels special to be able to think of a place you really want to visit and when you actually do, it just feels extra special. I always feel wary of sharing my plans since I'm afraid it won't work out or just gets ruined. It feels as though once I talk about them, they are doomed to fail or opened to rejection or criticism.

Places I want to visit don't work out. I wait for a few months, a year, two years and still it doesn't happen. I've been meaning to visit a place for such a long time that after more than two years, I just gave up on ever going. When I finally went, it wasn't so special anymore. I guess it just got ruined by all the disappointments along the way. Hmm... I guess I just have to keep trying and someday, hopefully my plans will all work out and I finally manage to set foot on where I would like to go.

I wish my family were here and we could all go together.

-.-''' Sitting in front of the computer doing assignment till it's nauseating. Geez.. thankfully listening to songs on my ipod helps reduce the effect. I never thought this would ever happen. Hmm.. I wonder if there's any scientific explanation to this.

On another note, test tomorrow and then one assignment to rush! I don't feel too stressed out which is rather surprising. I actually feel rather happy. Weird, eh? Hmm.... I think perhaps the computer got to my brain too.

I realise change. I feel change. I see how I am changing which surprises me. I didn't think it would be something one is aware of unless of course if done consciously. It feels as though I am looking at myself from a third person's perspective and I can see how I am evolving in certain aspects. Perhaps everyone feels that way, hmm.. I don't know.

Sometimes I lose myself, sometimes I get so involved that I forget where I am going and what I am seeking. Sometimes I lose track of what's important and what isn't. I feel thankful that at least I do remember them at times when it is crucial and important. Sometimes certain things amazes me. Yet, certain things scares me. Sometimes I can't explain how I know what I know. I really believe someone's looking out for me and I am truly thankful for all that I have.

I am blessed and I am grateful for it all. =)

I am going to be happy.

I miss my family.